Thanks so much for sharing this beautiful poetry. I give you all of my digital claps, all fifity of them, which I have not done for a long time.

I wish I knew men like you in real life, in the flesh. I feel so desperately alone in my pursuit of these lofty ideals of masculinity and feminity.

I am without a mentor, really, so I appreciate when I find any art or content which serves to mentor me.

I've even paid great amounts to be mentored by a man who has done the work, but I don't consider him 'my' mentor, just someone who has travelled the way I want to travel, and is excellent at articulating the guidance to get other men there.

From this poem it is clear that you also are gifted with this skill of articulating the path and the guidance to point people in the right direction, which is really more of an internal orientation than a physical pointer towards action.

I am scared of the love and life I want. But surely this is part of the path. I am so confused and filled with indecision, and so sad and lonely, but surely this is just who I am for now? Surely I must just work with what answers I have and don't have?

I don't want my masculinity to be imperfect. I don't want my masculinity to be confused. I don't want my masculinity to be afraid.

I want to be the King who never worries that he is doing the Wrong Thing.

I am desperate for growth, I need to become more than what I already am.

Writing is my part of my power, I know that much. I am saying too much.

From the bottom of my heart - from the solar plexus - from the seat of my higher being - I thank you. Be very well indeed!

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Writing and studying for the good of Black community, and to get clearer on exactly what that is. All praises to Yah.

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Writing and studying for the good of Black community, and to get clearer on exactly what that is. All praises to Yah.

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